Another Saturday which means another long day at work. Today I ran to work slightly late but that was because I tried to make time to eat something decent for breakfast. Ok now lets look at this photograph i've taken of my breakfast.
It's so pretty and colourful. It just brings out the healthiness and you feel so good about yourself, knowing that you ate that bowl of nutrients and vitamins! And then you look at the shit i've been eating previous days before hand... and you just think... why do I do this to myself? It doesn't take that long to cut up that entire apple and I know it's good for me. So why do I fall so easily for the unhealthier option?
When I got to work, it was the first time Benn and I weren't working on the floor together... that just meant that we were able to eat lunch together for the first time! (I know you might think this is normal, but for me it's a big deal. Like a massive deal!!) We drove out quickly to Subway (naturally) and I had a chicken on a sub... lettuce, cucumber, tomato and carrot. And a bite out of my cookie. Yeah, it killed me to know that Benn chose yoghurt over cookies (he is still in training) so I couldn't handle looking so fatty. Maybe being with Benn whenever I eat food makes me really self conscious about myself. I wanna be that healthy girl and he always makes me rethink about what I eat. It's not like I want to impress him or anything... because he knows I love my icecream. I've gone over this before earlier on in the blog but I am just so stumped as to why I care so much. Is it because I actually have feelings for this guy and I want to impress him and make him think that I want to be just like him? How come I don't try to impress Beau when he eats shit with me? Benn just influences me greatly without even trying. And I don't know how on earth he does it. Stupid guy. And his stupid perfect abs. I just want to punch them.
Ok that looks like a couple of bites...
Again for dinner, I was lost for time and didn't even think of cooking anything because lets face it, why would I want to whip something up from scratch when I had my mum's spag? Why?! I know I should have gotten something better but I just did not have the time to even think of something to cook let alone search my kitchen!
I think today has been a good and bad day, food wise. It started off good and then ended bad. I mean, at least I got some fruits and vegies in me but not good enough. It's just so hard when i'm stuck with time and I have food made already. Maybe I should tell mum to put aside some steamed vegies or something like that...
Nobody judge me!
Jocelyn
It's so pretty and colourful. It just brings out the healthiness and you feel so good about yourself, knowing that you ate that bowl of nutrients and vitamins! And then you look at the shit i've been eating previous days before hand... and you just think... why do I do this to myself? It doesn't take that long to cut up that entire apple and I know it's good for me. So why do I fall so easily for the unhealthier option?
When I got to work, it was the first time Benn and I weren't working on the floor together... that just meant that we were able to eat lunch together for the first time! (I know you might think this is normal, but for me it's a big deal. Like a massive deal!!) We drove out quickly to Subway (naturally) and I had a chicken on a sub... lettuce, cucumber, tomato and carrot. And a bite out of my cookie. Yeah, it killed me to know that Benn chose yoghurt over cookies (he is still in training) so I couldn't handle looking so fatty. Maybe being with Benn whenever I eat food makes me really self conscious about myself. I wanna be that healthy girl and he always makes me rethink about what I eat. It's not like I want to impress him or anything... because he knows I love my icecream. I've gone over this before earlier on in the blog but I am just so stumped as to why I care so much. Is it because I actually have feelings for this guy and I want to impress him and make him think that I want to be just like him? How come I don't try to impress Beau when he eats shit with me? Benn just influences me greatly without even trying. And I don't know how on earth he does it. Stupid guy. And his stupid perfect abs. I just want to punch them.
Ok that looks like a couple of bites...Again for dinner, I was lost for time and didn't even think of cooking anything because lets face it, why would I want to whip something up from scratch when I had my mum's spag? Why?! I know I should have gotten something better but I just did not have the time to even think of something to cook let alone search my kitchen!
I think today has been a good and bad day, food wise. It started off good and then ended bad. I mean, at least I got some fruits and vegies in me but not good enough. It's just so hard when i'm stuck with time and I have food made already. Maybe I should tell mum to put aside some steamed vegies or something like that...
Nobody judge me!
Jocelyn
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